the grey area;

What Hurts The Most,
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on
With you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up,
Gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do

Friday, April 17, 2009

i’ve been falling in and out of sleep regularly, and i think it’s more than just insomnia now. especially within the past fortnight, i wake up everyday from these odd but interesting dreams. you know what’s the crazy thing? they’re all about my PL secondary school days. i get glimpses of myself sitting in a classroom with my fellow upper sec classmates, and we do the usual been-there-done-that stuff. like attending lessons, kidding around with one another and disrupting classes?

then i’ll open my eyes, feeling a little empty and begin asking myself why i dream of such every single night. it took me a while, but i might have figured it. i almost forgot to mention that you’re the only one who never fails to appear in all these dreams, although most of the time you’re ignoring me. isn’t it already happening in reality context? it’s the project at hand, it must be. plus the fact, i miss those PL days and i wanna head back there quite badly. so just tell me about it.

let’s move on to i wanna do a shoutout to Blessann Luah Xiao Wei! because she’ll highly likely see this, i’m hopeful. the first thing is i miss you so much, you’ve no idea at all? i appreciate how you still want updates from me, even though you didn’t get much from my previous entry. you know what, you should just take a trip back home and i’ll tell you everything! and hey, you too need to update me okay? enjoy your upcoming bagpacking holiday, take care of yourself, be good and i still miss you more lah. :)

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