the grey area;

What Hurts The Most,
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on
With you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up,
Gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

i reckon me and updating my blog has become more like a seasonal affair. the reason this time around? because this sacred avenue was used as a weapon against me, and what makes it worst is i really dislike people saying untruthful things about me in the back. moreover if you’ve always regarded that someone as a friend? anyway i’m back here again, believing this chapter is closed and allowing it to fade away. thinking back, it still gives me a cringe! period.

too many overdue updates, i don’t even know where to begin. of course there are some things that haven’t changed, like the fact that i’m still jobless, considering study options and very unsure about my future. i super need an intervention of sorts, to start my engine going again. omg i’ve been bumming around for more than a year now, and no it’s not funny at all. i’d better work on it man!

on a happier note, i’ve forged a handful of new and closer friendships within my away time. you know who you girls are! i’ll treasure. :)

i survived your cold shoulder quite a while back, but something tells me i might be heading for the same thing soon. you know what, you do what you want and i’m still gonna do my thing. you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me and doing these little nothings is just my way of telling you this. it doesn’t really matter what’s at the end of the road, i wanna walk the journey being true to myself.

i’m never gonna stop singing,
because you’re the sing-a-long song.

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