the grey area;

What Hurts The Most,
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on
With you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up,
Gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

it’s been a long while,
but here’s the new JB Notion:
rubbing off onto each other,
officially swapped our roles

unlike in the previous occasions, this time this notion applies to us. my stand is firm, we all need communication to sustain any form of relationship, not to mention our friendship. sharing thoughts, feelings, values and everyday ongoings are the bricks to building a long-lasting friendship. don’t feel obligated to fill me in, but do the above in your own comfortable pace.

unlike other friendships out there, i hereby testify that we, the JB Notion, have forged a meaningful bond and both of us know how much this is worth. such a close bond also caused our traits to be rubbed onto one another, and we’ve officially swapped roles in times of friendship crisis.

friendships are about accepting one another in every aspect, i’m sorry for molding you into what you’re not. being unreal in front of me it shouldn’t be, you should be true yourself and be free to express every emotion. i don’t know how to, but i really want to return “you” back to you. and if you’re willing, i’ll be first in line to help you find “you”.

you mean the world to me and i don’t want to lose this friendship. so please don’t walk out on yourself, on me and our precious friendship. i’m praying you give me a chance to share the weight on your shoulders. things may now seem all discouraging and clueless, we have to keep the faith and come up with solutions a step at a time.

just like what you’ll say in the past, i believe these obstacles will bring us closer and make our friendship a stronger one. another point to add to your famous line; let’s take these as learning points to help us grow, for better mutual understanding.

one more time, i would like to say “happily ever afters” can happen in friendships too. are you with me?

till the next time we meet-up, i miss you.

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8:39 PM