the grey area;

What Hurts The Most,
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on
With you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up,
Gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do

Friday, June 15, 2007

let’s go on an escapade, i need to release all that is within me. there is too much bothering me, i wanna run off far away and just scream. i’ll try to address some of these issues here ;

1. tell me what’s the problem with some lecturers, they just love to throw their weight around. you approach me in this new semester, requesting for a report that i rebelliously didn’t hand in during the TEP period. what was i thinking, to courteously reply by asking if you really wanted me to send you that report. and guess what, you had the cheek to give your signature smirk and tell me in the face that you’ve already graded me for the previous semester. thank you very much, the bottom line is why even demand for my bloody report? just how ignorant and brainless some individuals are.

2. let’s move on to a friendship and self-conscience topic. i’m beginning to despise a person’s behaviour and ethics. if you have what it takes to skip a good old friend’s to head off to a new good friend’s, then you should also have what it takes to bring it out in text. why hide this ugly side from the rest of the world? it’s time to question your self-conscience, before you lose your true side. heed it or leave it, this is earnest advice from one of your good old friends.

3. we’ve never broached this subject before, and i’m referring to you and me. perplexed, confused and in a state of serious dilemma, i’m unable to put these intense feelings into words. but i’ll hereby fortify my stand; even if the frequency of our late night calls seem to be dwindling, it doesn’t mean i don’t wish to hear you through the phone. even if we don’t get to meet up as often as before, it doesn’t mean i don’t see you as frequently in my dreams. even if i’ve never expressed it, it doesn’t mean i don’t wanna shout out loud, to simply say that i’ve been missing you. my point is i don’t love you any less, so don’t doubt my feelings in these days.

moving on, i’ll be on a short getaway to the usuals. it’ll just be a couple of days to let loose, and will ring up my loved ones when i return from Kuala Lumpur. meanwhile, y’all be jovial and take good care.

bounced at
7:56 PM