the grey area;

What Hurts The Most,
by Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain
On the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then
And I just let ‘em out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though goin’ on
With you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again
I pretend I’m okay
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain
Of losin’ you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ it
It’s hard to force that smile
When I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still harder gettin’ up,
Gettin’ dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away
All the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin’ so much to say
And watchin’ you walk away
And never knowin’
What could’ve been
And not seein’ that lovin’ you
That’s what I was trying to do

Monday, March 12, 2007

my greetings, readers. i'm home once again to text this entry, it'll be rather random, allowing those innermost thoughts to be revealed.

i've never felt this vulnerable in a long time. how did i even get through today, i keep on asking myself. question me and i'll tell you all about the mixed feelings i hold. mentally fatigue, the reality doesn't seem to occur to me. just like before, i find myself lost in a bottomless pit and i've got to face this ordeal alone.

you probably may not be aware of this, but you'd always held a special place in my heart. unknowingly within the past two weeks, this feeling had blossomed into an irreplaceable love. you have a pleasant nature, an adoring personality & a mysterious aura. every detail of you, i was falling in love with. i'd made my moves, there were times you accepted my advances & also, times you chose to belong in the rejection region. no doubt, i was falling too deep, too fast.

the game's over, my heart is burnt and i'm in a state of self-denial. i brought this upon myself, no one else to blame but me. we'll never look at one another the same, i regret. i'll try to hang on to our friendship, but no promises as yet. since i chose to tread this path, i've never given up and never will do. i'll stand up and prove this love's worthwhile. remember this; if you need anything, i'm just a phone call away. these arms are wide open, i'll do anything for you.

every tune i hear is a depressing rendition, every message received causes a tear to fall, every time your name is mentioned, my heart grows colder.

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